Halfway there!

Yesterday marked the completion of 20 weeks of pregnancy...that's out of 40 so we are halfway there!!

Ugh...growing pains...

Okay, so I'm just about halfway there, just under 2 weeks to go.

Not to whine but:

I totally puked yesterday, sucked. I had just taken my vitamins and eaten an apple, poor Kenzie was home alone with me and was so sweet, she hugged me back as I vomited. I also got sick a week or two ago...more than through the first trimester when I was nauseous more, but not actually getting SICK.

Round Ligament pain is present...that is defined here: ROUND LIGAMENT and it hurts, it's been hitting me when I get up sometimes, walk, or bend over to say, get something out of the trunk of the car. I think it's just my body getting ready to grow but ouch! Feels like the cramps I get when I jog or run.

Also my uterus is definitely up and sticking out, I can feel it, and it hurts WAY more than usual to be bumped or to have it pushed on at all, say by a hand trying to feel or by Kenzie being playful...sucks means I'm not as fun.

I'm a little frustrated I'm not feeling the baby move...I wonder if it is because I'm so distracted with life or something...I think I've felt it a few times, but not every day, and not strong enough to be sure. I really thought I felt it a month ago but kind of question that now...why wouldn't I have felt it since if that was the case?

zzzzzzz...I'm tired a LOT. Geoff told me he read my blood is increasing 50% about this time...and heart is working way harder, probably has something to do with it.

I was very much wanting to do a home birth, but after talking to Kenzie's pediatrician, I'm a little nervous...talking to midwife about it on Wednesday and will talk about hospital options that are natural birth friendly. I'm also of course nervous about the house not being done, but this decision would totally take that pressure off which I think all would appreciate.

I'd like to take a birthing class soon, I never took one with Kenzie and think it would be nice to know what I'm getting into ahead of time this time, since I ended up being kind of drugged up last time.

Kenzie and Geoff are great, love them to death.

November is here!

Pregnancy is going great!

I just passed the 18 week mark and for the most part am feeling great...pretty tired a lot of the time and getting some of that 'round ligament' pain only. I know there is more to come though!

Kenzie and I had a blast last night trick or treating, loved it!

Beat

I'm feeling so tired today, and my left side feels all crampy.

Geoff is working on the house so it's me and K, I do not have energy to do much of anything with her, I feel bad about it.

I wonder if I'm coming down with something...I'm scheduled to fly to California this week to help my grandmother too...hope I'm healthy and it all goes well.

Ugh...

Today was good and bad.

I swear I felt the baby move at work today, which was a pleasant surprise compared to the other events occurring at the same time.

During my morning commute...I read while we were on the bus, and came SOOOO close to getting sick it's not even funny...I swear I even lurched a little bit. There was a smell like bad breath and it almost killed me, plus there was bad traffic (see my regular blog for today's picture) and it was just a loooong slow, stale commute. Didn't throw up though.

Towards the end of the day though, I had a pretty bad headache...bad enough that I stayed later than I intended, and drank a caffeinated soda thinking maybe it was a caffeine headache.

I made it home, and promptly puked my guts out. It was bad.

I still have a headache and hope this doesn't continue.

Dreams of babes...

I had a dream last night that was very very vivid...I usually dream but forget them right away, last night was funny because it took FOREVER to get to sleep and when I finally did I was having this dream...basically I was with my daughter, at some kind of birthing center, and I knew my sister was having her baby (she's not pregnant) and I felt like I would be soon too (but no pain) and upon walking into the building (clean place, no where I have ever been) I found her lying in bed peacefully with her new baby. I calmly walked back to another room thinking "it's my turn" along with my daughter and we got into a little tub/pool thing, very shallow, like a wading pool. I had a feeling like I should push and I heard someone tell me basically if you can feel it with your hand, it's ready, and in my dream it was like I felt down between my legs and the head was RIGHT there! (still no pain strangely enough) and so I peacefully reached down with my hand, and pushed/pulled the baby up to my breast. I remember in my dream my daughter watching with with joy as the wrinkled little newborn hungrily latched on for the first dose of mommy milk.

It was a WONDERFUL dream...and I hope I have it a few more times at least...I think just thinking about the dream will help me sleep tonight.

SO SO TIRED!!!

I have been so So SO tired the last few days it is insane...and as much as I'd like to take a few days off, I think of each day as one that I'll need that much more next April!!

I wish I had more energy...I just need to make it through this first trimester, it is freaking hard though I'm BEAT.

Feel different today...

There is definitely a feeling today, in my lower abdomen that is new...more of a 'presence' if you will, right at the bottom of my abdomen area. I think there was either movement or significant growth of my uterus last night.

Prior to this if I got sharper pains I felt them in the left side of my stomach, a little higher.

I'm excited for people to know I'm preggo...for a little while I had on a very cute pink shirt that was kind of tight, but really long and I thought it was soooo cute, tummy was definitely visible in a way that I don't really want yet though...well, I do but I don't. Especially considering my dad'll be at the picnic I think baggy is better.

I think we'll be telling people in early September...once we have the first appointment with Cindy (midwife we met with on Wednesday) and it is confirmed that all is well.

:-)

Ouch!

Nipples getting very sore...wedding tomorrow...Belize after that...going to buy some Jolly Ranchers just in case that nausea appears...maybe some ginger candy too.

I bought a bunch of maternity clothes yesterday, denim skirt, 2 shirts, white shorts, and a black dress...

I am so excited to see family!! I have so many close family coming to town I am excited and nervous and wish I could spend more time with them....can I have like 8 more hours in a day? Please? Who is in charge of this anyway....ok, massive amounts of stuff to do, time to get on it...(yawn).

5 weeks or so..

I'm still pregnant!

Honestly I don't feel all that pregnant, aside from it being harder to suck my tummy in a big and having to pee all the time. I've had maybe one or two random brief waves of nausea, but never came close to actual puking at all which is nice.

I don't remember how far along I was with Kenzie when I started experiencing that kind of yucky symptom.

Geoff is being really supportive, we have the wedding coming up but he is trying to read his 'Dad's Pregnant Too" book that I got him and is very sensitive to my feelings which is really nice and I appreciate it a lot. I am so so happy that we are getting married (in six days!!) and that I will have him as a husband and my babies will have him as a father forever.

Official!!! 2 Lines!!

I couldn't wait until Monday to take another test...took one this morning and check it out!!!


I am so excited...I'm not going to talk to anyone except for Geoff, Jessicka & Antoinette about it though just so I can focus on this wedding!!! I am so excited...this time I will be happily married when my baby is born.

I've talked to Kenzie about it too, only in the 'someday' sense but she got sooo excited. Anyway, gotta work now...and act NOT pregnant

:-)

Wishes for Future

I just filled out a form for another site that was supposed to make a book but it didn't work...it asked me my wishes for my baby, and what I wrote applies to all my babies:

A fulfilling life...I wish this for all of my kids. I hope that you experience lots of good things and are knowledgeable enough about not so good things that you aren't too curious. I plan on being married to Geoff forever and giving you and Kenzie a happy family to come from and that you know that we love you, all of us do, Kenzie, Mommy & Daddy no matter what.

Still think I'm pregnant!!

I couldn't help but buy more pregnancy tests...I bought a three pack, one of which I used right away, nothing really showed up but I'm not terribly surprised just because it is the end of the day and I've been drinking water and peeing like crazy.

I'm going to take one tomorrow morning too...unless I can stand to not do it.....and I'll wait until Monday or Sunday morning for the last one of the package.

Due date for the baby if I'm pregnant I believe would be April 4th next year...so I would probably have a little Aries baby :-) I am having a great time thinking about it and really look forward to what it means. Impacts in the now around drinking alcohol and coffee are not bothering me as much as I thought it would...I'm just joyful and distracted thinking about other things.

If the lines show up 'very' pink tomorrow I will show Geoff and make an appointment...otherwise I'll wait until no period comes and I take the test probably on Monday.

We will see!! If I am pregnant, it means we don't have to hold back on our honeymoon but I can't drink really (saving money!) and if I'm not then we'll have a blast and look forward to doing this sometime later....really it is looking good BOTH ways.

:-D

I think I am pregnant!!

Within the last few weeks, I have experienced:

• Spotting
• Heartburn
• Dehydration
• Sensitive Nipples

...and in my limited experience....this means I am pregnant! I took a test this morning, I couldn't wait and it had the faintest cross line that I have seen...but I could see it! I did show Geoff and he saw the same thing, said it looked like we could see the ink but that it didn't look activated.

My period is scheduled to start this weekend...if I am pregnant I'm barely pregnant. So we will see what happens this weekend...if anything!

Wedding is in 16 days...